Tuesday, July 15, 2008
So, I really don't talk about myself much. For those of you who know me well, you know what an introvert I am. Sure, I can still sell ice to Eskimos, and be the big businesswoman, and make the deals...blah blah blah...but in my heart and soul..I am an introvert. I prefer my alone time, my quiet time, easy lunches or wine with one or two friends. I like my personal space, I like spending time at home.
I don't like to draw attention to myself. You will not see me wearing make-up or wearing jewelry..and I don't get manicures and pedicures or treat myself to much. Being the center of attention is not my style..we didn't even have a wedding reception and I was uncomfortable having a baby shower. I am not sure if it's a typical Minnesotan trait - I hear that sometimes...that it is this quiet Norwegian/Lutheran(I am neither by the way) society that makes us so bashful about ourselves?
Of course, having kids now doesn't exactly help not being focused on oneself...perhaps that is why I love motherhood so much..as the focus is almost entirely 100% off of me and onto these gems. hhhmmm...something to ponder.
I like being an introvert. I like just watching and thinking and doing for others. I actually think that introverts make the best salespeople..as they spend more time learning about the customer instead of talking about themselves.
Being an introvert has made me a runner. I run. I have ran for 16 years now..I ran 5 miles the morning Eloise was born. I love to run. I don't win races(that would be too much attention), but I finish every race I start. I run a slow and steady 4 hour marathon....never walking, never winning and never quitting. I run for me..for my peaceful 30-45 minutes of complete, introspective thinking and quiet each day. I never run with music..I want to hear my thoughts..not someones songs. I never run with others. I have before, and it ruins my day..even if it was with my best friend. Running is my selfish, quiet alone time.. I will never join a gym, or exercise with others...running is solitary and just simply sweet perfection for me.
However, I noticed I have completely let my running gear go to heck the best few years...I used to buy new shoes every 4 months..and here these are 2 years old and still going...and then I looked in the mirror at what I was wearing and noticed I was wearing the same shorts today that I wore for my 1st marathon in 1995(happy they still fit 13 years later) but I seemed to be achieving that Bruce Jenner outdated look. Not pretty.
So, for ME..selfishly, selflessly, lovingly...I bought myself new shoes and 2 new running outfits. It felt good to think about memememememememe this week and treat myself. Running is too important to me to let it go like that again. I need it and promise to take better care of myself.
...just please don't stop me while I'm running to let me know how great I look in my new duds...as I'm running, alone, happy, thinking and focused and really don't like to be bothered much.
Posted by Tracy at 9:02 PM