For all of the well wishes, heartfelt congratulations, hugs and hi-fives I have received the past few weeks since coming out of the pregnancy closet...my favorite comment has got to be "wow, that is great, congratulations...better you than me." Yes, I am glad it is me.
Now that the majority of my friends are in the 40ish age segment of the population - this comment makes so much sense, makes me laugh with delight and continues to give me pause at life's little miracles and surprises.
Many times during the day I do sit and ponder the thought "oh my word, I am 40 years old and pregnant - I will be in my 60's when they graduate college..will I even be there for their wedding." Many times a day I also remind myself that I still also have a 3 year old - so a newborn at this time of my life isn't that so far-fetched or crazy.
Right now I am a mom - and look forward to being a mom again. I am 40 and ready to start again with a lovely newborn. I am not doing much else right now - except already being a mom ...I have my education, I did my 16 years in the corporate world, I have traveled the world, experienced life, enjoyed fine wine and men. I am content in my choices, my world, my family. I am young and happy and full.
Sometimes my kids do not realize how young I am. I don't blame them...when I graduated from high school, my mom was all of 39 and I thought she was quite elderly.
Case in point - the conversation from my backseat today while bringing Eloise and her friend Maguire to a birthday party.
Maguire: Hey Eloise, my mommy found out yesterday that she is going to have a boy. I really don't want another brother as I already have one. I want a sister to play with. What kind of a baby are you having?
Eloise: I am not having a baby - I already have a little sister who is a girl and she is not a baby anymore.
Maguire: No, I mean the baby in your mommy's belly - what is it?
Eloise: My mommy doesn't have a baby in her belly - she is waaayyy to old to do that again.
Just think how old I'll be when she graduates from high school. Nice.