Tuesday, January 5, 2010
I cannot relax.
I am one of those people who loves yoga, but when they do the deep breathing/meditation part - I act like I am doing it, but instead look around the room and watch other people really doing it, analyze how my ass and boobs look, AND at the same time make my to-do lists.
I am one of those people that when I have gone to church or before a meal when they say "let's pray" - I don't close my eyes or pray at all - but look around the room watching other people in silent prayer as I pick lint from my skirt and make my to-do lists.
I am a morning person and as Jed so eloquently says about me "you get more done before 6am than most people do all day."
My parents made us go to bed by 10pm even as a senior in high school. This was mainly so we could get up by 5:30 to start our days.
We should've lived on a farm.
When I watch people "do nothing" or as they call it "relax" or "take a nap", I admit that I get angry. As I can think of about 5 million other things they could be doing.
I am out of my pj's by 6am every morning and expect my kids to quickly follow suit.
Watching people lounge in my home is very stressful to me.
So imagine my surprise during these 10 days of Winter break when we had nothing on our calendars. No travel, no appointments, no expectations, no structure, no lists.
For once in my life I actually cherished it. My kids stayed in jammies until 10am. We had picnics in the living room, we ate popcorn for dinner and if my kids wanted to watch TV and movies all day - so be it. We played board games, did art projects and made appropriate messes.
It was snowy and subzero and we just enjoyed the laziness and comfort of home.
Even me. I even read a book.
I do admit I was looking forward to yesterday - up by 4:30, school bus at 7:30.... but for 10 short days I actually enjoyed some easy breathing and lazy days.
Posted by Tracy at 11:00 AM